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Forty four years today…

Forty four years today I came into this world. A Drop of water from outer space, taking the shape I have now.

The only intention I am aware of – that this drop had when it landed here – is my shape: I seem to have all the parts in moderate proportions.

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But why am I here? I am sure the universe would not waste material for nothing… am I ‘being’ enough for Life?

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I know I was born old as I don’t seem to grow older… just stuck somewhere between a waterfall of questions…

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I believe we always have a choice of paths and that in choosing one over the other, we define ourselves.

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But I also believe in rebirth, that in every moment we can reinvent ourselves again and again and again… That’s all Time is, a chance to reinvent ourselves…

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I wonder how far or how close am I to the intentions of the Drop that landed in this body, forty four years ago… And when it rains, would I recognize myself among the others…

The many shades of happiness

Coming to the end of another year and I let  myself carried away with the wave of all the rush to remember everyone… Have we “bought something” for everyone we know? How easy it is to be swayed in asking no questions….

yearly resolutions, landscape photography, Donegal beachAnd then it dawns on me: what if we could not “buy” things but we would have to make something for each person we care about? Make something using our hands and imagination?

Story telling in Donegal, ancient crafts in IrelandEven more, what if we forget about things? Simply focus on creating something memorable for all people that mean something to us? Have the power to give them a happy moment?

happiness moment, abstract photography…see that list disappearing, as realization hits: how much do I know about all these people beside hints about “things they like” or “things they hope will make them happy?” How much do I really know about their dreams and their hopes and what really makes them happy?

moon eclipse, landscape photography, photo of skyHow much does an oak know about me when it makes me feel so complete just by allowing me to rest under his branches? How can I share love like an oak does?

large oak tree, forest in summer, landscape photographyMy two dogs pull me out of my daydream and drag me out for a walk up Bloody Foreland. A little storm is brewing on the west, but, I say, we’ll be back before it hits.

Bloody Foreland Donegal, Donegal landscapeAs with all good things, we are caught in the storm… up half way the hill, I can see the dark cotton blankets coming towards me like curtains to different worlds… like veils protecting different truths…giving me a very very short glimpse…

abstract photography, landscape photography Ireland And seconds later I feel the full blast of wind and water against my face and my eyes and, up here, almost suspended between sea and land and sky, with all this energy running through me, I am as happy as I might ever be… as tingling lines of life run through my veins. And I feel them just like when I first set my foot on this place almost twenty years ago …. a place that makes me happy from inside out, with its wilderness, its howling winds and crying rains…it makes me content with just being, like resting in the company of an oak…

old tree root, landcape photography, memories of placesHow do they do it? How do trees and places and waves hand out love and happiness as if they know you?

abstract photography, columbia hilen photography, Irish photographersSo I make my short-term resolution. In the last few days I have left of this year, I will try to be silent and supportive like an oak, accepting and encouraging like a mountain, soothing and alive like a wave, for all the people in my life… and from the lessons I learn, I will know what the next step will be …

Autumnal thoughts

Why do I feel the weight of the world on my shoulders?
It’s light.
It’s light when I cloth my soul in a different skin.

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It’s light when I burst into blooms of colors and scent.
Why can we only love what we see but fail to see the fear that blinds us?

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A night of weary thoughts rushes in through my pores, and it’s not the darkness I fear, but fear itself.
Why do I feel the weight of time on my shoulders? Or more likely the lack of time that presses down ever so slowly, and ever so fast like the night pressing down on the setting sun.

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It’s light and I’ve been awake in my dreams. It’s time to fall back into the sleep of reality again until I convince fear to like me.

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Once upon a time in Cnoc Fola

Once upon a time, there was a girl who dreamt of a specific place by the sea.

Cnoc Fola Festival, Donegal festivals

She did not know if the place was real, but that did not matter, as it was real for her.

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She had grown up in the high mountains of Transylvania and she loved the mountains.

seafood in Donegal, Cnoc Fola events

But she missed the salty fragrance of the sea, mixed with the scent of pine trees.

Story telling in Donegal, ancient crafts in Ireland

Books were describing this place, Bloody Foreland, as the last vestige of the ancient people of Tuatha de Dannan, where magic is still alive.

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And she could see this place so clearly in her mind’s eye.

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Its colors and its people…

Teac Jack Donegal, Bloody Foreland Donegal

The dancing and the laughter…

Irish dancing Donegal, sean nos dancing

The crafts and the crops…

basket weaving, creel making Donegal,

mussels picking Donegal, fresh seafood Donegal

…but some say it was just a dream.

Instant perspective of heterotopias of time

Airports can be such a contrasting combinations. On one side, they are cold, characterless warehouses, with no soul – we never spend enough time there to leave too much of ourselves.

In the same time, they can be nests of spiritual gatherings, hosting such a diversity of humans with all the hopes they carry while inhabiting them.

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And if you start paying attention at the people queuing at the security control, most of us are walking like in a trance, maybe even some kind of meditation. And when you start listening to some of the things people say, you might just get an instant perspective of the beauty of the human mind –

…it’s like putting your life back again,” says a man giving me a smile while he is gathering his belongings after passing through the security machine.
…we have to die so new little people can grow again, right mamy?” A small little girl says while pulling at a large briefcase towards the conveyor belt.

…if you are to choose only five words to define you, what would those be?” The dark-haired girl asks her boyfriend while he is taking his computer out of his bag to put it in the tray. He looks at her and asks her if she took out her toiletries bag. She smiles.

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Are airports heterotopias of time? Can we connect better with each other if we rationalize that we are constantly in an airport?

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Je Suis Charlie: A thank you to all my diverse selves, wherever you are out there

It’s no coincidence that I have been reading “Tomorrow’s God” by Neale Donald Walsch when the events in Paris happened.

And even though Walsch says that any act of violence is a cry for help, is so hard to look at the attackers and admit that they are merely the embodiment of our collective failures in how we treat one another. Hundreds of years of bowing to fictional descriptions of a series of Gods who are continually separating us from one another. It was such a tough mirror to face.

So, like never before, I was so proud to be a human being when people gathered in Paris and other cities of the world, showing that Life, above all, is what we treasure most and what unites us all.

Many humble thanks go to everyone who was out there on the streets marching on behalf of Life today. With your permission, from the wild northwest of Donegal where I am now, I would like to call you all my different other selves and join in your diversity and solidarity.

100_6017Tomorrow’s God does not require anyone to believe in God.” N.D. Walsch

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Tomorrow’s God is separate from nothing, but is everywhere present, the All in All, the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end, the sum total of everything that ever was, is now and ever shall be.” N.D. Walsch

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERATomorrow’s God is without gender, size, shape, color or any of the characteristics o an individual living being.” N.D. Walsch

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OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERATomorrow’s God talks to everyone all the time.” N.D. Walsch

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Tomorrow’s God is not a singular Super Being, but the extraordinary process called Life.” N.D. Walsch

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